21 Things that I'm going to try...
1. Keep my voice low, even when I'm certain the only way anyone will hear me (or listen) is if I scream at them.
2. Pray. Not that I don't. I'm going to pray as if my life depended on it!(Which it does!) I need to truly depend on Him and make Jah my intimate friend.
3. Pick up my guitar again and stop making excuses!
4. Dare I say it.... think before I speak!
5. Laugh! Laugh when I'm alone. Laugh when I'm hurt. Laugh when I'm feeling unworthy, laugh (or at least smile) when I don't believe the compliments I'm given...
6. I'd like to have someone over for dinner that I would have never considered until now.
7. Breathe. All of this is going to end at some point. Good/bad. It'll all be gone. Enjoy. Learn. Breathe.
8. Try to be humble, really humble. Remember that in the face of complaint, I have it so much better than others that never asked for or deserve what they ended up with.
9. Love. In every aspect of the sense of the word. When others are angry, love.
10. Let go of pasts. It's like you taking poison and trying to watch someone else die. You're the one that it'll kill. It wastes too much time. You never get that back.
11. Don't worry. You know, no matter what we do to our kids, they still (for some reason) turn out okay. Pick my battles. Know that we're protected by a very big God!
12. Think pretty. Big girls are beautiful! Rolls are okay. Stretch marks are battle wounds of the 'play'ground, a beauty mark of the life we carried. Now, if I could just convince myself that's TRUE!
13. Just listen. Don't always offer advice. People don't always want to hear my stories that are similar to their tribulations. Sometimes people just wanna vent and feel as though they are the only ones on the planet that are experiencing their trials. They know they're not alone. They know what to do. They know the advice. Just listen.
14. Do things for myself. Not in a selfish way. Children need to see their folks enjoying life. In turn they enjoy one another. Just make what I'd like to eat sometimes. Write again! I used to write all day long. I loved everything. Poems, stories, agendas, ideas, thoughts...
15. Try a diet. Not "diet". Diet, meaning "lifestyle". I'd like to change my outlook on food. It really is just to fuel you throughout your day. It doesn't always have to be a form of art, enhancing the flavors, eating more, sampling everything, critiquing.
16. Let someone else teach me. Accept that I don't need to do everything. I don't need to teach others always. Stop being so independently stubborn. It's okay to learn something that I'm uncomfortable with and look like a fool.
17. Dance again. Try it. I used to love to dance. Then once I felt my husband smirk as I was dancing. Immediately I closed up. I only dance silly for my kids. Not seriously... I feel like I'm too big... I'm so afraid of proving the stereotypes true! Letigo!
18. Patience. I'll try it. Some say I have it. I don't see it!
19. I want to try to travel without a guide. Appreciate everything that I lay my eyes on, that I smell, that I taste. Be cautiously naive.
20. Talk to those I need to. Don't ignore them when they're really wanting to know. Don't push away... I know I'm a talker to most, but sometimes, to avoid conflict, those that I need to communicate with get silence.
21. Finally. I'd like to try trusting people. I do. I don't. Not just trusting them once. Trusting them always. Let stupid stuff go. Don't hold grudges. Wasted time.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
21 things about me! (I'm so self-consumed.)
21 things about me:
1. When I go to someone's house and use their bathroom, I always turn their toilet paper around so that it goes over the roll, not under!
2. I was married at 18! And I'm still married to the same guy! SHEESH!
3. I absolutely love Celtic music.
4. My heart melts when I see "older" folks holding hands or opening the car door for one another.
5. I've been known to cry over a commercial.
6. I would like to use the restroom just once every now and again without an audience.
7. I love company.
8. Matt drives me insane! LOL
9. I love to try new things. Very domesticated. But, my heart lies where there is warmer weather and the open road.
10. There was a time where I could easily do 80 pushups (boy style, with chin touching the floor. I got an A in gym for doing that). Now, I don't think I could do 4.
11. I don't manage my time as wisely as I should. Like right now, I should be cleaning or studying...
12. I love to read! Fiction and self-help stuff! and the watchtower publications. They always have intriguing facts.
13. Man, this list is taking 4EVER... Sometimes, I wish I could go back to work just to get a break from the things at home. But, noone else does what I do the way I do it.
14. I like to talk a little bit... I'm catching myself offering unsolicited advice. Trying to work on that.
15. I hate hotdogs UNLESS we're at a baseball game. For some reason they just taste better there and my desire to comprehend all that I am ingesting is overshadowed by tradition.
16. Spring and Autumn are my favorite seasons. Summer comes next.
17. I'm more like my grandmother than I am my own mother.
18. I love thunder storms.
19. Did I mention I like to talk?
20. No matter how much I tell you that your kids are cute, I'm secretly thinking inside that they're definitely not cuter than mine! LOL TEEHHEEE.
21. Cyndi Lytle is a keeper. She's one of my best girlfriends. She puts up with all my crap. No matter how mad I make her, I know she's still gonna call me over for dinner!
1. When I go to someone's house and use their bathroom, I always turn their toilet paper around so that it goes over the roll, not under!
2. I was married at 18! And I'm still married to the same guy! SHEESH!
3. I absolutely love Celtic music.
4. My heart melts when I see "older" folks holding hands or opening the car door for one another.
5. I've been known to cry over a commercial.
6. I would like to use the restroom just once every now and again without an audience.
7. I love company.
8. Matt drives me insane! LOL
9. I love to try new things. Very domesticated. But, my heart lies where there is warmer weather and the open road.
10. There was a time where I could easily do 80 pushups (boy style, with chin touching the floor. I got an A in gym for doing that). Now, I don't think I could do 4.
11. I don't manage my time as wisely as I should. Like right now, I should be cleaning or studying...
12. I love to read! Fiction and self-help stuff! and the watchtower publications. They always have intriguing facts.
13. Man, this list is taking 4EVER... Sometimes, I wish I could go back to work just to get a break from the things at home. But, noone else does what I do the way I do it.
14. I like to talk a little bit... I'm catching myself offering unsolicited advice. Trying to work on that.
15. I hate hotdogs UNLESS we're at a baseball game. For some reason they just taste better there and my desire to comprehend all that I am ingesting is overshadowed by tradition.
16. Spring and Autumn are my favorite seasons. Summer comes next.
17. I'm more like my grandmother than I am my own mother.
18. I love thunder storms.
19. Did I mention I like to talk?
20. No matter how much I tell you that your kids are cute, I'm secretly thinking inside that they're definitely not cuter than mine! LOL TEEHHEEE.
21. Cyndi Lytle is a keeper. She's one of my best girlfriends. She puts up with all my crap. No matter how mad I make her, I know she's still gonna call me over for dinner!
Where the heart is...
Ohhhh. How I've longed through all of the winter and ice to recieve a bit of vitamin D through the most natural source available. And it's finally time to be able to enjoy it! The sun. I know it's only March 19th, but I'm already calling my grandmother for reminders on when to plant things. Last weekend we spent time trimming down rose-of-sharon and planting grass seed in the bare spots that the dogs dug up.
When we were gathering all of our yard debris, we spotted some debris that some kind neighbor relocated behind our privacy fence (which we have to keep clean in order for the city not to fine us!). Well, apparently there was some poison ivy in this heaping pile of someone else's laziness. Now, when it's blooming, I know just what to look for in the leaves and berries. When it's naked, it just all looks like crap to me. So, guess what we did... We took everything over to our friends' house and had a bonfire! Her dad came out when the fire was almost entirely gone and says, "Who brought all of the poison ivy?" AAAAAHHHHH!!!! My heart sank. We had all these people and ALL of us had kids. OMG! If any of them gets poison ivy internally, I will just die! He seemed to feel it looked "old". D@m& those people who left me their mess. OOOHHHH, you just wait. I do a lot of yard work Spring - Fall. I've got an incling as to whom it may be, b/c last year I was hanging laundry on the line and noticed my rose-of-sharon that's behind my privacy fence moving around. Then, I saw the old man that lives behind us walking to his house.... his yard all neat and crap. Well, I have TWO DOGS buddy! ...and "crap" is right! Anyway, guess what I have all over my arms and the creases of my elbows and my fingers! Yep, poison ivy! I don't think it came from when we burned it. It was when we were loading it all up in the truck to take over, I bet! André didn't get anything... Black people!
So, that story is actually a little off subject from what I wanted to right about (A.D.D. much?). My heart truly lies in the open road. OHHH how I long to visit my family out of state! I think I'm going to plan a two week road trip for this year, perhaps when André gets laid off. I don't know. I want to stop by Kentucky, first and visit André's Aunt Cleo (her middle name's Patra. Isn't that cool?) She lives in Louisville. She's much older that André's father (in her 80's) and we'd like to spend some time with her. Then, we have some of the DEAREST friends ever, that I miss so much, in Virginia. Kim and James and the girls. They are really our family more than friends! I forced Kim to be my friend and have been bugging her ever since! They have the most delicious girls around, Jada and Olivia. They left Ohio and went back to VA and we've seen them...twice. They only live 6 hours away (but the roads are so windy, I'm car sick every time we show up!).
Then, we have friends that live in North Carolina, Guy and Veda, who are always up for the company. I believe they just had their 3rd baby! Congrats!
But, our final and last stop will be where my heart has lied since I was 2... Where the humidity takes your breathe away and every beach you go to has a different color of sand. A place that, no matter where you go, has a man on the corner selling boiled peanuts! Aaaahhhh. Boiled Peanuts! The home of the Gators. Florida! My family lives in Jacksonville. Well, actually, McKlinney, but it's just a little town near Jacksonville. My favorite spot, though is St. Augustine! I'm not exactly sure what we're going to do this year b/c I'd really like to see the golf side. It's amazing how the difference is from one side to the other. We'll see. I'll have to do some research. Ugh! But, it'll be worth it!
When we were gathering all of our yard debris, we spotted some debris that some kind neighbor relocated behind our privacy fence (which we have to keep clean in order for the city not to fine us!). Well, apparently there was some poison ivy in this heaping pile of someone else's laziness. Now, when it's blooming, I know just what to look for in the leaves and berries. When it's naked, it just all looks like crap to me. So, guess what we did... We took everything over to our friends' house and had a bonfire! Her dad came out when the fire was almost entirely gone and says, "Who brought all of the poison ivy?" AAAAAHHHHH!!!! My heart sank. We had all these people and ALL of us had kids. OMG! If any of them gets poison ivy internally, I will just die! He seemed to feel it looked "old". D@m& those people who left me their mess. OOOHHHH, you just wait. I do a lot of yard work Spring - Fall. I've got an incling as to whom it may be, b/c last year I was hanging laundry on the line and noticed my rose-of-sharon that's behind my privacy fence moving around. Then, I saw the old man that lives behind us walking to his house.... his yard all neat and crap. Well, I have TWO DOGS buddy! ...and "crap" is right! Anyway, guess what I have all over my arms and the creases of my elbows and my fingers! Yep, poison ivy! I don't think it came from when we burned it. It was when we were loading it all up in the truck to take over, I bet! André didn't get anything... Black people!
So, that story is actually a little off subject from what I wanted to right about (A.D.D. much?). My heart truly lies in the open road. OHHH how I long to visit my family out of state! I think I'm going to plan a two week road trip for this year, perhaps when André gets laid off. I don't know. I want to stop by Kentucky, first and visit André's Aunt Cleo (her middle name's Patra. Isn't that cool?) She lives in Louisville. She's much older that André's father (in her 80's) and we'd like to spend some time with her. Then, we have some of the DEAREST friends ever, that I miss so much, in Virginia. Kim and James and the girls. They are really our family more than friends! I forced Kim to be my friend and have been bugging her ever since! They have the most delicious girls around, Jada and Olivia. They left Ohio and went back to VA and we've seen them...twice. They only live 6 hours away (but the roads are so windy, I'm car sick every time we show up!).
Then, we have friends that live in North Carolina, Guy and Veda, who are always up for the company. I believe they just had their 3rd baby! Congrats!
But, our final and last stop will be where my heart has lied since I was 2... Where the humidity takes your breathe away and every beach you go to has a different color of sand. A place that, no matter where you go, has a man on the corner selling boiled peanuts! Aaaahhhh. Boiled Peanuts! The home of the Gators. Florida! My family lives in Jacksonville. Well, actually, McKlinney, but it's just a little town near Jacksonville. My favorite spot, though is St. Augustine! I'm not exactly sure what we're going to do this year b/c I'd really like to see the golf side. It's amazing how the difference is from one side to the other. We'll see. I'll have to do some research. Ugh! But, it'll be worth it!
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